Trying to Be Positive

It's hard to stay positive these days. I know I'm blessed for the family and friends that I have. Mom and dad are still here with me, my sister lives in town now, too, and I have a roof over my head.

I thank God for all the things that He's blessed me with. I just wish He would bless me with a job soon. I have had a lot of time contemplating and am turning my thoughts around for the next position that I get. It's time for me to take my career to the next level and I am ready for it. Now, it's just a mater of time and trying to stay positive.

My Mom, Bless Her Heart

My mom is a wonderful person. She has her ups and downs just like anyone, but she's a wonderful, strong, and very compassionate woman. She's the best mom in the world....

Changing The Past

Sometimes, I just wish that I could change what I did in the past. Change what I did, change how I did things.

Uncertainty

I am feeling a great amount of uncertainty right about now. I don't have a job, and haven't had one since the beginning of July of this year. I have been looking far and wide, and I do mean far and wide, well, at least spanning the US with thoughts of other countries, but other countries just don't seem that they would really pan out for me right now.

Ever had one of those days or weeks? Well, I'm having one of those years - multiple years. It seems like every time I turn around, something else happens.

Gut Wrenching Times

Today was a gut wrenching nightmare of vomiting in just about anything that I could find that was close, and I think I used a roll of toilette paper while I was at it. Both ends spewing forth my insides at the most inconvenient of times.

It's Been A While

Sorry that it's been a while. I have been pretty busy. Things got pretty crazy since my last post.

Drivers, Beware ....

Y'all can be utterly stupid sometimes. Granted, I haven't always been the best, but really? Seriously, people...

Just Sitting Here

Well, I had a great time tonight. I went with my best friend and her husband and their friend in a limo on a beer run. Well, more so on a beer tour, really.

Have Kids? Married? Why Not?

I’ve always wondered why these questions pepper my existence. I’m almost 33 (but I’ll tell you I’m 29), I’ve never been married and I don’t have kids. As a matter of fact, I don’t want kids, either.

If Only I Had A Picture

Of me at the gun range shooting a Glock and an AK-47. I'm 115 lbs or so, 5 feet 4 inches tall and the last time I really did any shooting was when I was 10. That was with dad and I was using his 22 rifle.

Thank God For Self Control

Yesterday I just had one of those "I'm Hungry" days. I was just hungry. Yeesh.

Who Wants A Massage?

I don't, and I will tell you why I don't. It's not like they don't feel good, because most of the time they don't for me. As a matter of fact, they generally hurt and make me feel very uncomfortable. But there's more.

That's His Name, Don't Wear It Out!

So, I was on my way home from work sometime ago and I got a text message from my roommate. "Millie is screaming my name off her deck." Ah, crap. Here we go - she's found another way to piss everyone off.

It's Not What It Seems

I miss companionship, love, warmth and that look in someone's eyes that loves you. Sometimes, I wonder if I ever really truly felt that before, though.

Shooting Range Anyone?

So, I've been asked to the gun range, again, for the 4th time in a year. The other 3 times, the plans never came to fruition. Oh, all by different guys, too. I'm still not sure why guys seem to want to ask me if I want to go with them to the gun range, but, all in good fun. Should be interesting if I do go. I have never... correction, I have, been to a range. But that was 23 years ago.

Why It Is

Here's The Start
People are always wondering why I'm not married. I'm 32 and nearing 33 very quickly. I have been engaged once, sans a ring though. But, as we can tell, that never worked out. He was/is a bipolar alcoholic with severe abandonment issues. So yeah, that wasn't going to last.

A New Year - Well, Sort Of

It's June 1st. So, it's a new half year, really. I am going to start over with this blog and do a little something different with it. I have a professional blog, but not one where I can go and rant. So, here is the ranting blog.