My Mom, Bless Her Heart

My mom is a wonderful person. She has her ups and downs just like anyone, but she's a wonderful, strong, and very compassionate woman. She's the best mom in the world....


Well, she better be... she's my mother, for crying out loud. We've had some serious bouts of anger, pissing contests, boundaries that have had to be put down, and shouting contests, too. You name it, my mom and I have been through it all. And now my sister is in town from the West Coast and living with mom and dad. She's getting a divorce from her husband of about 2 years, just got a job at a clothing store and is still being her. Let's just call her Anne.

I love Anne. She's my blood sister. But, there are times where I wonder where her head is - the clouds, La La Land, some other universe... I don't know. But, there is one thing that I know. As much as my mom loves her, my mom is pained in how Anne is dealing with life. She secludes herself from everyone, doesn't socialize, and wonders where everyone has gone at times. /..............(that was Izzi walking across the keyboard).

Anyhow. my mom has been really leaning on me a lot lately. She's been calling much more and has been telling me how much she loves me. It pains me to see how much my mom is hurting since my sister isn't involving herself in the family. My mom knows that my time is limited here, and I think that she's really hanging on as much as she can. Even though I have been a real sh*t in the past, a turd, and a complete twit, I have come around to be the stalwart of the family.

Somehow, I keep everyone in check and I'm the youngest (and have pulled out some 4 grey hairs now this year!). It's hard, it's not easy, and it does get a little tiring at times, but at least my mom and dad know that I will always be there for them, no matter where in the world I will end up.

The reason why I have been seeing some of these things is because mom has been calling me much more than usual. Sometimes, it's just to talk. Other times, it's to ask a question. Even other times, I don't think she has a reason and will say that she forgot why she called just so that she can talk to me before she goes to be (like tonight). I try my best to get over to their place as often as I can, and honestly, I think that she would love for me to move back in and live with her, dad and Anne just so she knows that there is someone else there that she can talk to.

Just call me Dr. Empy, I guess. Or, maybe I'm the Human Whisperer like the Dog Whisperer. I don't know. All I know is that people somehow depend on me for encouragement, love, peace of mind, and help... just like my mom. Bless her heart.

Well, it's time for me to try to go to sleep ...

Peace out for now..

Domo Arigato Gozaimasu

~~Empy